Sunday, May 1, 2011

To "family"!

To me, family means- people who will be there for you no matter what. People who, even in your darkest hour still make you feel like your shining brighter than you ever have before. They're there to see you through anything and everything that can come your way. They have your back and would never say an ill word to you or about you! They don't use or manipulate you. And when you bring someone into your life to share your life with that person, regardless of their feelings on it, they will support you and do all that they can to see to it that you are happy. They wouldn't dare try to ruin a relationship between you and someone else, nor would they do all that they can to make you or your spouse feel like their being means next to nothing. And they will be there to share all the happiest and joyous moments with you.. not take them away!!!
I've had to deal all of this from so many people from all aspects. And quite frankly, I'm done! You can only take so much from people. And I've finally got to that point, I feel its best to exert myself from the situation. I will do what I can to ensure that you people can't hurt me or my husband anymore. To me, whether your "blood" or not.. BLOOD does not make you family!!! And the only way I will feel better about what you've done to me is to completely throw you out of my life. I don't deserve what you've said and done, and I will not stand for it.
My husband and I are our own family now.. whether you like that or not. We are happy people, and do not need negative influences.. especially at this point in our lives. You've slandered me, threatened me, and have tried to ruin my marriage. But I'm here to tell you, our marriage is based on LOVE.. its a bond that can't be broken. But, thank you! Thank you for showing your true colors and how you really feel.
And apologies? No.. sorry! What's done is done. You can't take it back. Go ahead and say that it was just the heat of the moment. That's not gonna change a thing! Because its obvious that what you said has crossed your mind or else you wouldn't have said it.
Like I said, Chris and I are our own family. We won't be involved in stupid drama. We don't need it, nor want to be around it. We have too much to live for. So you can take all of it, and just sit and think about what you've done. You will live a long, lonely, disgusting life. While we'll have eachother and be just fine no matter what! (:
This is to ALL of those who have hurt Chris and I, and who THINK they will come between us. This is not for one specific person, because God knows there hasn't just been ONE person who has tried to sabotage my marriage!
My husband is my world, that will never change. We are young and prosperous. We will make it through anything. And without those negative influences in our lives, we will be such happier people! So, again.. thank you for all you've said and done. You've only made me a stronger person, and more eager to be the best wife (and eventually, mother) that I can be! Have a grand 'ol time meddling in someone else's life, because your not coming anywhere near ours!

Love, The JENKINS! :D


Thursday, April 28, 2011

Deployment..

So... I'm young, I'm married, and I'm LONELY! My husband is deployed, it has been two months in, and I'm going crazy! I miss him so much, its insane. I know all that I can do is stay positive and keep my head up (even if just for him not to worry about me). At times, it gets really hard. I'm just thankful for my friends and family who talk me through all of it.

I especially appreciate my military wife friends who I can talk to, and relate to! Unless you've been in our shoes, I'm sorry, but you don't understand. Maybe you've had your boyfriend/fiance/husband leave you for like ten hours at a time.. but he comes home to you, and chances are he calls or texts you. When you've experienced a deployment then you'll really know what its like to MISS someone.

It's the little things that you become so grateful for. The kisses, the hugs, holding hands, their smell (even if he does smell like, "a guy".. haha). You miss their voice, the way they look at you, waking up next to them each day.. and just knowing how they're doing! These are things you don't get with deployment.. what so ever!

So, when your sitting on the couch with your husband/wife, just lean over and cuddle. Give them an extra kiss before you leave for work, tell them what they mean to you, and please don't take them for granted. Because once your in a situation where its impossible to physically show how much you love one another, you'll wish you had that time.

That's all I have for now. But, this is an everyday thing for me.. I live the military life for the time being. As proud as I am to be married to such an amazing guy who just so happens to be a Sailor.. I'm ready for us to both live a civilian life together. (:

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Our love story:

[Our very first picture together]
Chris and I met mutual friends at a party. (We all know how that usually ends up!) He came up to me and starting talking to me, and of course my friends who knew him were telling me ALL about him. I wasn't too interested, I had a boyfriend at the time... and he was in the Navy (based in CA, so how were we supposed to start a relationship?). So, I went my own way... and from what I heard he continued to ask about me.
I eventually left the boyfriend that I had when he and I first met. Then, out of no where, starting spending quite a bit of time with a guy who went to the same school as Chris. Randomly one day, for no reason at all, I added Chris on Facebook.. he accepted and messaged me. And what do ya know... he asked me about me and my (ex)boyfriend. I told him that he and I had since broke up, and that I had been "talking" to a guy who will remain nameless. He wasn't too happy.. in fact, he asked me why I hadn't even given him a chance. I blew it off, no big deal.. I really "liked" this other guy.. so I didn't want to mess that up. Well, eventually... it destructed itself! And yet again, what do ya know.. he found out and made his way in there by helping me "get through it".
We started talking more and more.. on Facebook, and texting. He would text me morning, noon, and night! He seemed sweeter and sweeter to me. He always tried to talk to me on the phone... I didn't want that, I wasn't ready. He would get so frustrated with me! All he wanted to do was get to know me. So after a long talk with my best friend (my sister Tiffany), I finally answered his phone call! And boy was he shocked!
We talked, and we talked, and we talked... we laughed and even argued; it was actually quite funny since we're just alike in so many ways. After a few months, it was time for him to take leave! He came home right after my birthday and we spent the whole time together! It was amazing, and after that time together... I knew he was the one! We spent 10 days together, and then he went back to California. And things only got better.
Long story short... he came home again in December, he presented me with a ring, we got our marriage license, and headed to the courthouse! And we couldn't be any happier or more in love! Even though we just had a little ceremony between us, we wanted to have our families involved. So, while he's deployed... I'm planning our "recommitment ceremony"! Wish me luck!